sometimes it be like that
Apr. 16th, 2019 10:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kendiefoxThree and a half months into a year-long commitment to ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
getyourwordsout and I'm feeling like I will not be recommitting next year. I don't write more or better. I don't feel better about my writing. I mostly just feel guilty for doing anything that isn't writing.
Which really sucks because I'm super excited about my quilting and my sock knitting. Until I put them down and look at the laptop guiltily for not using that time and energy to write. Nevermind that I didn't have writing energy, I had crafting energy; I needed to create a physical thing, not an ephemeral series of words in a document. :/
I do have energy and excitement for the writing and researching I'm doing, don't get me wrong. I am meeting my minimum goal of days worked, and I'm feeling good about the words I've put down. So why do I feel guilty for having interests and hobbies that are not directly related to writing?
getyourwordsout and I'm feeling like I will not be recommitting next year. I don't write more or better. I don't feel better about my writing. I mostly just feel guilty for doing anything that isn't writing. Which really sucks because I'm super excited about my quilting and my sock knitting. Until I put them down and look at the laptop guiltily for not using that time and energy to write. Nevermind that I didn't have writing energy, I had crafting energy; I needed to create a physical thing, not an ephemeral series of words in a document. :/
I do have energy and excitement for the writing and researching I'm doing, don't get me wrong. I am meeting my minimum goal of days worked, and I'm feeling good about the words I've put down. So why do I feel guilty for having interests and hobbies that are not directly related to writing?
